The Hustle. The Grind. The Busyness.

The Hustle. The Grind. The Busyness.
The notion of being ‘busy’ actually felt more like a mismanagement of energy and time, than a life I could stand proudly behind. I was finally seeing that the risk of letting go may possibly outweigh the benefit of feeding the fear of the unfamiliar.

The effect of the hustle started wearing off a few years ago. It was no longer serving to fill up every moment in my schedule, and simply not allow myself to just BE. I was missing so much that was available to me in this human experience, including the depths of feeling and deep connection in turn. It was easy to hide away from what was really coming up for me, with the distraction of work, friends and family, and even the children. A full, full life with no room to truly breathe and simply be present.

The illusion of perfection was being deconstructed right before my very own eyes. The notion of being ‘busy’ actually felt more like mismanagement of energy and time, than a life that I could stand proudly behind. I was finally seeing that the risk of letting go may possibly outweigh the benefit of feeding the fear of the unfamiliar.

Examining the unconscious state of being, and really seeing why I was making the decisions I was for myself was not a comfortable process. It required me to let go of a great deal that appeared to be serving but wasn’t underneath all of the layers.

You see, productivity is like a drug. The more we take to it, the more we need to increase the dose to produce the same effect as we had previously experienced.

I consciously decided to let go of a great deal that had me feeling ‘safe’ and ‘worthy’ — I experimented with having no agenda for a number of months, so I could step into the flow of life to see what that would bring. This was a dramatic shift from the life I had been living — high productivity and go, go, go. I was attempting to prove that I was worthy of my place in the world by over functioning at every moment.

I started to see life in an entirely new reality with time, as there was nowhere I would rather be than this very moment. There was no regret about the past or anxiety about the future, and the immense checklists I had maintained until then. I had to be ok with all that which wasn’t in energetic alignment fall away.

The children started stepping into more and more of themselves and their voice, as I allowed more time to witness them just as they were and truly listen. Their behaviour reflected a sense of love and worthiness like never before. Even through running multiple business ventures, I made a concerted effort to put my phone away the moment they were home from school until bedtime. I started working in 90 minutes blocks, twice a day, and this surprisingly became much more effective than the 14–16 hour work days I had been all too familiar with.

Living in true alignment has been the most difficult path to step into as it required me to let go of the perceived ‘control’ and success, but has allowed for creation in an even deeper and more meaningful way. It is truly an easy and magical life when we surrender to the beauty of what is and the opportunities as they come. I still set stretch goals in every area of my life, but the outcomes or how much got done in a day doesn’t dictate the quality of my life experience or my self-worth.

I have since met many incredible humans that have really stepped into life in a similar way. They too have broken away from the belief that ‘success’ has to be hard work, fuelled by long hours. I have learned a lot about how creativity and inspiration require a great deal of space and stillness, and that the pauses in between are where the magic happens.

I offer this contemplation- what life are we role modelling for our children? What beliefs do we have them buying into as a result of how we choose to live? What would it take to let go, little by little, and simply BE?

I truly believe you will blow yourself away upon seeing how more can be created when we surrender to the flow of life!